Realization

These past few days, I've discovered something. I think one of the reasons I've been trying to hold on to him for so long is because I thought he was feeling the same way. I assumed he would want to see me again. I assumed he missed me as much as I missed him. I assumed he wanted me in his life as much as I wanted him in mine. But these last few days, I've realized that this may have never been the case. And this... for some odd reason... makes it easier to move on. It seems like this would make it harder, realizing I may have been wasting these last 4 months waiting for him to "come around." But in reality, it makes it easier because I've realized this and no longer have to wait for him to "come around" because maybe that was never his intent in the first place. Yes... I'm moving on. I still think about him a lot, and I'm sure this will still take a while to overcome, but I know now that my mindset has been wrong this whole time. If he missed me, he could have just as easily contacted me. But since he hasn't, then fine. I'm not going to sit around waiting anymore.