this is getting ridiculous

Ok, seriously. Why can't I just move on? It's been a freakin month and a half, and still all I think about when I'm by myself is you. I need resolution. I was depending on this weekend, and you fell through. And now I have to wait even longer. I need you in my life. I'm not the same without you. I'm so selfish. I know I just need to wait till you're ready, but I just want to talk to you so bad. After this long, I shouldn't nearly be in tears. But I am.